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Losing my mind and everything else…
By Mommy24-7 | December 14, 2007
I’ve already accepted that I am a forgetful person. But I’ve been working on it as much as I can, meaning getting as organized as possible. Well, I *thought* I was doing well…making progress. I LOST my parents’ Christmas gift! IN MY HOUSE! I made the gift…tons of time and love put into it…and poof, it’s gone. I’ve looked EVERYWHERE! Well, unless someone came into my house and took nothing but a personalized Christmas gift…it’s here somewhere. How annoying, maddening and stressful!
Then R’s preschool party was supposed to be yesterday…schools were closed cuz of the weather (which wasn’t that bad…) Anyway, she already had her dress on and didn’t get to wear it to the party. So, I told her she could wear it today…we had another party with MOMS Club. Well, her stockings are missing! She only has one pair of warm, black tights that fit…she had them on yesterday…and now they are gone! The too are nowhere to be found.
Tonight we went out to dinner and then outdoor shopping in our little town. Got into one store and she wanted to take her hat off, her fancy pony tail holder…GONE! I searched her jacket, hood, hat…so unless it’s in the car somewhere, that’s gone for good.
All of these losses are not doing much for my Christmas spirit. I have gifts to wrap, cards to address, blah blah blah. I know this stuff is petty but it’s driving me nutz. I really can’t go out and buy another fancy black pony tail bow because I just can’t. I have no income and it’s just really depressing.
I hate the fact that I do not make money. I have a full time job taking care of my daughter. There are always reports out stating how much stay-at-home-moms *would* make if there was someone to pay. It’s over 100k. That would be so nice to actually be appreciated for all the energy, time and aggravation. I appreciate being able to be home each day with her. She’s amazing and I LOVE being able to be here for all the growth and big moments…and small moments. That really is priceless. But it doesn’t pay bills. I’m tired of being “put down” for not earning money and just in general looked at as a lazy person who should be “working”. Well, I AM working, 24-7. We couldn’t afford child care if I had a “paying job” and if I worked nights, I wouldn’t make it. I would be sick and run down and falling asleep at the wheel. It’s very depressing.
I’m also sick of the pattern of us wanting a house (we have a townhouse) but not being able to get one till I’m working a “paying job” which I can’t do. We want another child but not until we have a house. Well, I don’t have a magic wand. I just am so so so sick of hearing that I don’t make money. I REALIZE this. I am completely and totally aware of this fact. If I could figure out a way, I’d be selling something, working from home… The problem with working from home is that you actually need to work for periods longer then 10 minutes straight which is very difficult with R.
Ok, like everything else…I’ve lost my train of thought…so before this gets even worse, I’ll go wrap gifts and tomorrow I can rip my house apart to find things and in the process probably misplace 10 other things.
I love my daughter, I love my husband, I am not living out on the street. I will shut up now.
January 18th, 2008 at 2:14 pm
if you get really serious about blogging, this has a potential for you to make income while you stay at home.
Anyway, I landed here by following a google search that landed on my blog about bunco
I noticed you blog about being forgetful and boy - I am glad I am not the only one!
Aloha!
Liza
http://lizas-eyeview.blogspot.com/