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Now I lay me down….
By Mommy24-7 | July 7, 2007
to SCREAM!!!!!
The girl has good lungs…no denying that. I’m writing under a great deal of stress….monitor sitting next to me in the kitchen and I don’t need it turned on to hear the screams…that’s just constant awful schreeching. I listen to it to hear her insane yet funny comments. She is NOT adjusting well to the new bed. She loves it during the day….but currently she is trying to knock her door down. It sounds like she’s hanging pictures up there….nope…only her fists on the door.
Do I feel like the worst mommy ever? Um, yes! And no. I’ve never been on the cry-it-out team….but occasionally let her do it. This isn’t crying. It’s insanity. Now she’s screaming “I want to go in Mommy and Daddy’s bed” We have created a monster. People told us along the way “don’t let her sleep with you” etc. Well, athough I can see their point, they weren’t living with us, sleeping here…. She is a VERY specific girl and can and will tell you exactly what she wants yet at night she gets loopy. She’s saying “I need something” It’s just a tactic to get us back…so I’m letting her go. It’s killing me….so I continue to write, hoping she’ll crawl back in bed. Who am I kidding? I know my daughter. She will not be sleeping anytime soon. How do you get an almost 2.5 going on 16 yr. old to listen?
The only way I can calm her is to hold her in the glider in her room or lay in bed with her….and I usually do that. I am trying so hard to break this though. Then when she finally is asleep and I’m in my bed, I miss her!!! Oh, I can’t win!! Eventually when she’s in bed next to me I stare at her and think “she’s only 2….she’s so little…this won’t last long…I need to cherish this time and not think of it as a problem”. I do think that way….but I’d also like to be able to put her to bed and get something else done after being with her all day long, all night long.
How many people do I owe phone calls, emails etc too. Pictures I want to make into photobooks, photos to print….but that’s all ME and for the past 2.5 years ME comes last. I accept that. I just maintain the right to complain and vent every now and then…or everyday:)
Well, I’ve reached my limit of not going to calm her down. I’ll leave this post on a silly note to give myself something to laugh at when I go up to her…. usually she uses her toddler toothpaste that just brushes and doesn’t need to be spit out….last night she practiced spitting for the first time so that when her toddler paste is gone, Mommy will get her REAL toothpaste. She was sooooo excited.
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